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Doctor’s Appointments All Around…

28 Aug

Today has been rough for all of us over here. I woke up around 5am with excruciating pain which I thought was my pancreas. Many of you know about my gallbladder surgery that resulted in a hospitalization due to pancreatitis when I was 21 a few years back. It isn’t uncommon for me to get flare ups every now and then which result in an ER or Urgent Care visit. I was able to fall back asleep after a few of those attacks, and woke up to feed the baby around 9am again. This time I was having a constant pain. Unfortunately, Lux also had a doctor appointment today, and my sister was suppose to come visit afterwards. I told my mom that I had been experiencing these pains and that they had yet to subside so she offered to take me to Urgent Care while Russell took the baby to her doctor appointment.

Lux’s appointment went wonderfully. She is up to 9 lbs. now! She is in the 50th percentile in all her growth. The doctor was very pleased with her weight gain and growth. I am so proud of her and myself.. because as I talked about here, we were having some minor set backs in the feeding/weight gain department, and I have been struggling with the idea of continuing breast feeding. I’m glad I was able to stick with it, and sure enough, she is getting what she needs to thrive.

My doctor visit at Urgent Care wasn’t filled with good news like baby girl’s was. It turns out my pancreas is doing just fine, but my liver is not. After some blood work was taken they found that my liver enzymes were up to about a 500 count. Normal is 10-30. So you can understand their worry—and mine. They gave me an ultrasound to check out my abdominal region to make sure there were no stones or obstructions causing my liver to become inflamed. Everything looked okay there. So after almost 8 hours of being there… two IV bags, and two shots of demerol in the butt… they sent me home and told me to follow up with a doctor in the next few days. I’m still having bouts of pain, and I’ve decided if I get one more attack like I did this morning, I’m going to the ER. AKA: my second home.

Unfortunately, because I was away from the baby all day we have been forced to feed her formula all day. Also, because I am on some pretty strong pain meds I don’t want to pass that to her. I am a total mess about it. I missed her so much while I was there… and all I kept thinking about is how shitty this situation is. How am I suppose to take care of my baby if I’m sick like this? After all this hard work breastfeeding, it’s just going to fly out the window.

On top of all this, I’m still feeling pretty terrible. I am absolutely exhausted and in pain. But I’m still breathing, and my baby is sleeping in her swing, and I’m watching her as I write this. Trying to stay positive about it all… even though the subject isn’t so on the positive side.

I’m going to cap off this day by finishing off my chicken broth and The Newsroom.

Me, Myself, and my baby bump

15 Jun

I’m sure whoever decides to make it to my blog would want to know why I titled it, “My So-Called Mommy Life”… well I guess maybe an introduction of who I am and what I’m all about would suffice:

My name is Emily, I’m 25 years old, and I am currently 34 weeks pregnant with my first child–a baby girl. I have always been some what of a free spirit, a party-girl, have you. So anyone can imagine that finding out I was pregnant, seemed like the end of my world. [I understand how horrible that sounds, but if you really knew me… you’d understand why I felt that way.]

After much deliberation, my boyfriend, Russell, and I decided to start our family together. It’s been a rough pregnancy for me, and I’ve been in school finishing up my Bachelors degree in Sociology. In fact, I just finished yesterday. So I guess you could say, I’m a college graduate now.

I never imagined becoming a mother at the age of 25, let alone, at any point in my life, really. So this has been quite the adjustment for me. Luckily, all my girlfriends are thrilled for me–as I am the first one to have a baby– and I have a loving and supportive family. My brother and sister’s all have children, and my parents live near by.

I am unbelievably scared and nervous about the birth of my baby.. not the actual birth part– but becoming someone else’s mommy. It will be interesting to see how this journey plays out.. and I am so excited to meet this little girl that’s been kicking me in my ribs for the last 8 1/2 months.

Hopefully, I’ll get some more mom’s or mom-to-be’s to follow on here…

Here’s some photo’s of me and my man… just so you can get a sense of who I am:

Russell and I

 My sister, brother, and I at my brother’s law school graduation at UNLV (So proud of my big brother!)

 My nephew, Benjamin, and I: